Tawny's Walk

What else?

This past Friday I lost my job. The lady who just took over as my boss let me go due to car trouble and babysitting issues. It had only been going on the past few weeks. I am a single mom and no longer have a car. I was doing everything in my power. Some co workers were outraged and even to tears for me. This new supervisor never worked with me and hardly talked to me. Well I hant hold on to my anger. I have to move on and hope something better comes along! The Lord is with me always! These are the times I need to draw closer to him even when its easier to pull away.

We found a house!

My family and I have finally found a house! Didn’t know if it was going to happen. Now we have till the end of the week to move. Now lets see this miracle take place! God is good to those who wait on him!

My minds a fog!

Wow! It’s been awhile since I have been on here. So much going on and not enough time in the day. Still trying to find a place to live by the end of this month. I know that something will work out. It just has to. I don’t even know what to say. My mind is all over the place. I have more stress then I know what to do with. I need my bible! Why didn’t I bring my bible today! I need that important one on one time with God!

Bad Day!

So yesterday after work I was headed to the chiropractor at the hottest part of the day! Maybe 118 or something! I was driving like normal when all of a sudden I noticed the rpms in the car just drop down to 0. I had no clue what happened then moments later the engine light came on and the car just stopped working. I tried to coast into an apartment complex to my right. I got half way through the entrance. A car full of guys were pulling out at the same time so they stopped and pushed me into the parking lot. Very nice of them except they parked me in a red zone with a tow away sign right next to me. So I still needed some help. I couldn’t just leave it. I couldn’t get anyone to come help me. Then the maintenance worker for the apartments came and asked if I needed help. He helped me push it into a parking spot and then gave me a ride down the street to the chiropractor. A very nice man!

So I walk into the chiropractor’s office dripping with sweat! I am so embarrased and gross! He puts me on a rolling table with a pillow and ice pack to cool down. Finally once I start to dry out he tells me that my back needs a lot of work and that I have to go in twice a week for a few months and then continue once a month for six months. He knows that I am having financial difficulties so instead of charging me the $200 a treatment he is only going to charge me $30 a visit which will contain 3 to 4 treatments. What a blessing! I get adjusted and leave feeling better then I did when I got there! I go back today!

I still don’t have ride home. I have a friend that works in a restaurant that is in the same shopping center so I go so him. He offers to buy me lunch! How sweet! Then I get the call! I forgot it was early release day at my daughters school. So she is sitting in the office waiting for her wonderful mommy to come pick her up! My friend allows me to use his car to go pick her up. As I walk in and appoligize to her she says ” its okay mommy. I am fine.”  What a sweet girl! We then go return my friends car and he gives us a ride home. I now had to find a way to pick up my son from preschool. I had another friend who had to go pick up his kids so he picked my son up for me.

Although I had a rough day I can now see the blessings that I recieved. How do people live everyday without the Lord? Without him I would not have recieved help pushing my car twice, get a ride, given a break on my treatments, free lunch, a way to get my daughter, a ride home, and help getting my son. I am so thankful! 

What’s next?

So I am going to lose my car. My ex’s mother had to call and tell me that my ex has not made the car payment in three months and it is going to get repossessed. The car payment was always one of his arguments for never helping me with the kids. His lies just keep coming out! This is not even the worst part. My mom had to go to court yesterday because her ex husband was suing her and trying to kick her out of her house. The house my kids and I live in because I can’t afford rent somewhere else. So we have to move out within 60 days. Where we are all going to live is beyond me. Prayer is definitely needed. We will find a way!

I needed to vent!

Busy morning so far! Wake up at 7:00 and get my kids ready and out the door by 7:40. Drop my daughter off at Kindergarten preparation. Then take my son to pre-school. Go home and make 36 cupcakes. The cupcakes have some with blue frosting, some pink and some purple. Then they all have matching sprinkles. So I get done with this at 10:15. I get a call from my work that they need me to come in early at 11:00. I couldn’t get in at 11:00 so I said i would be in as soon as possible. So I have 15 minutes to get ready for work and get to the school to pick up my daughter. Then take her to pre-school with the cupcakes for a potluck/water day. Get to work by 11:25. Then I realize I haven’t eaten today! I am going to starve! I can’t get something because my account is overdrawn. I guess I have to wait to eat at dinner.

I just get so overwhelmed sometimes that I feel like I could cry at any moment. I have so much to do and so little time. I worry about what I am going to make for dinner everynight. I can make something but will it be enough to feed the kids and me? Not always sure so I will eat what they leave behind. I will be the clean up crew. I am thinking I have one package of mac n chesse and some frozen green beans and corn. It might not sound like enough for the average adult but for two kids it’s plenty.

I asked their father if he would be able to help us out with some money to get through till I get paid and his response was “I don’t grow money or shit money.” Same story just a different day. He always has bills to pay. For me paying bills is a luxury. I have to feed and clothe my children first. Someday this will all pay off. My day will come! The Lord is with us!

My Champion!

Church tonight. I can’t wait! I need it since I missed service Sunday.